Monday, 15 April 2013
Sometimes it takes someone else to show you why...
My life is still a bit f a chaotic mess, and despite my best efforts to get back on top of everything, it's not going too well. I keep thinking I'm getting on top of things and sit down to write an article when something else pops up!!! Still that's life I guess, and we have to put up with it until we die. I've been doing writing of different varieties, mainly non-blogging stuff, and maybe one day you might get to see it, especially if I can figure out what to do about self publishing stuff. But I digress.
This morning I received an email from a chap I had an email conversation with over a year ago now. He stumbled across my little corner of the Interwebs while searching for anime images and stuff to inspire his own work. He was a non-wargamer, and the sight of some of the Infinity models and artwork got him all hot and bothered... in way only us nerds can get hot and bothered. He's never really heard of this wargaming hobby, living in the cultural backwater that is Australia.
Hang on, I thought Australia has a big gaming community. Right? Turns out he's never stumbled across a Games Workshop store (bang goes their theory on passing trade huh), or heard of toy soldiers. At first I thought he was pulling my leg. Turns out he was being 100% genuine, and he wanted to learn the ways of the wargame geek. I spent about 3 months answering emails and offering support to him and his two friends. I even managed to put him in touch with some local Infinity players in his corner of Auz, thanks to the awesome community of gamers in the Official Infinity forums.
I helped him pick factions, I explained some of the more complex concepts and ideas in the rules. I even gave him hints on glues, pinning and painting... even though I told him there were far better sources of information out there for him than I. So I guess I acted as a sort of hobby mentor. The last email conversation I had with this guy though was 7 months ago now, just after I helped him put an order together for some Sarissa Precision scenery. I assumed he'd either got bored of it all, or had just grown up and flown the nest. They do grow into nerds so fast these days.
Either way, my good hobby deed was done, I had tried to support the growth of the Australian gaming community all the way from little old Blighty, and I could hold my head up high. Still it would have been nice to know how his hobby was getting on... well, fast forward to this morning and I've received an email showing a fully painted Infinity force (dirty space gypsies if you must know), and a nicely arranged Infinity board. Turns out things are going great for him and his buddies. They've all finally got their forces painted and are happily playing games. They've even run Infinity intro games themselves. AWESOME!!!
When I've sat down over the past 3 months or so to write articles for this Blog I'm going to be honest, it's not just other pressures that have stopped me writing my thoughts. Sure, things got hectic for me, and sadly more accurately my other half around Christmas time, and I was needed to step up my familial duties... but... there were other things stopping me from writing. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't felt a little depressed by everything that has been going on in my life. I have. Mental illness is nothing to be scoffed at, and truth is I suffer with bipolar disorder. There I said it. It has taken all of my strength to just get through the days and do what I needed to do to keep the household ticking over.
I haven't hit the depths of despair that I used to when I was much younger and people thought it was just typical teenage mood swings; but it's been tough having to deal with things that I thought I was well on top of yet again. But I love my hobby, and I loved writing my Blog. However, as some of you may know I received an awful lot of very nasty emails concerning certain subjects I'd written about on here. It started being something negative for me. If you like the asshats out there started to ruin one of the things that I pour my creative energies into... and I have an abundance of that!!!
In short, they made me forget that actually far more positive things have come out of writing this Blog. Things that have helped other people, something I really like doing. So receiving that email this morning made me realise that actually perhaps the whole Blogging thing could be a positive thing again. I certainly was filled with far less dread sitting down and typing this than I have been for some time. So if you have any stories of how this, or any other Blog has had a positive impact on you then let the authors know. It makes a difference to us as well you know. Peace out!
PS. Sorry about the lack of pics but I felt I needed to just bang this out in 10 mins and get it posted. Otherwise there was a distinct possibility I'd never have posted this.